Looking Back on Friday, Sept 5, 2003

Below is a typed version of my journal I wrote almost five years ago. Taken from my private collection. I would just like to share it.


Friday, Sept. 05, 2003
Journal
Washington, D.C.

I hearby write this journal at work at the Rosetta Stone booth in Union Station. I write to you journal to let you know that I applied for another job on-line but guess where this time. E...C....U in Greenville, NC. I can't believe I did this. I was online yesterday emailing ECU faculty trying to get advice on my job search on a college campus, especially Maryland State University and while I was searching for other contacts I decided to click the employment section to see what qualifications ECU would have since it is a University I am familiar with on an idea of getting insight on other Universities. There was a position open in their Admissions office that got me thinking and excited and I don't know what compelled me to do it but I applied for the position. I couldn't believe it. After I got off the computer I had to talk to God and asked what have I done? What is going on with me? Why did I do what I did? And the only answer that came to me was IT JUST MAKES SENSE!!! I'm only working for a year, I want to work on a college campus. I'm lonely, I'm homesick, I'm miserable here in D.C. without my friends. Basically at ECU I can have my cake and eat it too. It's the most practical solution to my predicament. I had it all at the very place I couldn't wait to leave out of. I can't believe I didn't think of it sooner, how could I have been SO STUPID!!! I should have looked into that while I was there. What could I have thought was going to happen after I graduated. George Bush was going to throw me a graduation party at the White House while I escort Hailey Barry and become interviewed by Oprah Winfrey. I leave a place with friends, opportunities, community, resources, and expeirence to be a fish out of water in Washington, D.C. and build from next to nothing and I 'm not saying that it can't be done but these things take time, presistence, patience, and faith. Of course it will happen but not in one-year what takes four years to build. Yes it is tough for me right now, very tough but it doesn't have to be that way right now. God gave me exactly what I asked for, and now I ask for something new. I'm glad I did experience all of this here in D.C. Jobs, people, place, and great guidance from Mike. I've seen Mike in a new light that I have never seen him before. I would call Mike up for advice and feel comfortable around him. I can appreciate Greenville people and events more so now in two months than any other time in my life. Man, there's so much to learn. My plans now are simple. I can't be sure if they are right but they feel right and I obtained guidance from Mike and Sonya (my older brother and his wife) and hopefully other people as well. I'm making plans to go back to ECU. I need things to happen. I need a job #1, I need a place to live #2. I need this place to be a convienent area or situation for me to get to and from work. I need to make good and more money. I need to be able to find joy and need to continue to have faith.

Prayer Request: "God if it is his will and he approves, to make this journey back to ECU a successful one, and for it to just start happening so I could have hope. Good Job, Good Place to live, I want it to happen soon. I don't expect spotlights or a red carpet but I would like ECU to welcome me back with open arms. I want to come home again like the protocol son. "